Hi Love,
You’ve been on my mind, and I hope you are doing well. I’m sorry if this comes across a bit heavy. Thank you for giving me a space to share what’s been weighing on me. A few days ago, I was at a thrift store and came across a sweatshirt with a raven on it. The design really caught my eye, and it felt meaningful in a way I couldn’t quite explain, so of course I had to get it. On the drive home, I found myself deep in thought, and I was thinking about how someone once mentioned that ravens are in fact quite intelligent. I looked into it later and was surprised to learn that they sometimes partner with wolves, leading them to prey and then eating the leftovers after the wolves are done. I had no idea they did that...interesting.
Reflecting on all of this made Psalm 147:9 come to mind: “He gives to the beast its food, and to the young ravens that cry.” It’s comforting to know God’s always taking care of us, especially during these difficult times.
While driving the song Poor Unfortunate Souls from The Little Mermaid popped into my head, and it made me think of a contract I was almost seduced and manipulated into. But praise God He gave me wisdom on that one!
Speaking of that, I may not know all the details right now, but this much I do know: my boys are chosen and called for such a time as this. The God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob sees everything — every scheme, every hidden motive, every tactic. And to those who are interfering and trying to stop what God has ordained, I urge you to reconsider, repent, and make things right. Satan, no matter who or what you try to work through, God will make it clear that coming after me and my boys was a mistake. No weapon formed against the purpose God has placed on my boys will prosper. They are called to be mighty men of God. His justice is real. His angels surround and protect us. And I will fight with everything in me for their freedom. You will have to kill me before you can get to them, and you’ll have to answer to the almighty God who is fighting for us. And to my boys, don’t worry, you’ll be in my heart always and no matter what. This is the fight of my life. We’ll be fearless and unstoppable together singing our fight song. They can’t steal my joy! We serve an awesome God, full of wisdom, power, and love — and that’s who I praise, with all my heart.
God has also been reminding me of Wicked recently. For my tenth birthday, my mom and sister took me to see it in Chicago. Years later my sister and I got to see it again in London with a few of her friends. I haven’t seen the movie yet, but I’ve heard it’s amazing. Wicked is a powerful story, and I really resonated with what Jake and Taylor shared here. Praise God because we’re defying gravity now (nothing can hold us back!), and I know I have been changed for good.
Back to ravens, I couldn’t help but think of Edgar Allan Poe’s poem The Raven. I honestly completely forgot what the poem was even about. But as I reread it, instead of hearing the word “nevermore,” I smiled and thought to myself...true love always finds a way. And no matter how long it takes, I will wait for you (while also thinking of this).
We stopped by our neighbor’s house for a bit yesterday, and a friend there asked if I could help with his website. I’ve built more websites than I can count over the years and have become a bit of a WordPress wiz, so I was more than happy to lend a hand. His wife also reminded me of Psalm 36, which I found really encouraging.
Keep fighting, Love. It’s only a matter of time before the truth will set us free. Thank you for all you do for our family, and I can’t wait for the day when I can show you how much it means to me. I can only imagine what is waiting for us on the other side. Honestly, we just need Jesus to start a fire in our souls. I thank God for His reckless love. You’re always in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you’re holding onto hope and walking closely with God. Remember the future He’s written for you, and never forget — you were built to love and made to lead. I believe in you and am cheering you on from afar. Praying our love guides us home like a lighthouse.
I love you.
Jeanie
P.S. It’s an exciting time over here. We’re leaving for a family reunion at my parents’ place, so I might be a little quiet for the next few days. I hope your family is doing well too. I really look forward to the day I can see them.
